Yes, it’s bad. Not really painful just very scary. I will describe it like this, imagine every where you go someone who you can’t see is behind you whispering in your ear ‘any minute, any second that I decide I am going to hit you so hard that you will cry and pray for me to stop. Any time any place and only I will know when’.
ain’t really slept from it, felt ok in the hospital due to the ecg being constantly monitored and being give iv meds to keep the heart stable, but from I’ve got out I’ve been living in fear. I’ve never been so scared of something and have cried a lot . 31 times was a bit much tbh I’m thinking I would rather die than go through that again. I told the doctor that if it goes off once more I will hit my head of a wall hard enough to knock me out. I can’t do it I’m crying again, I want it out