rox, thanks for sharing your recent history with us. The loss of your son was clearly devastating to you at a time when life should have just been opening up for him. I lost my youngest son when he was just an infant, but I still carry him in my heart to this day. I don’t know whether it helps, but if I see something beautiful or moving like a sunset or a field that is a blaze of yellow, I talk to my son Ryan quietly in my head and say “look at that Ryan, isn’t it stunning”! He would have been 22 now, so he and I have seen some sights. It may sound slightly mad rox, but it works for me. Best wishes POPS.
It’s not been easy, especally for his two younger sister, they had only known life with Christian in it. (he liked chris) But life must go on, but it will affect us forever, nothing can change it and other’s just won’t truely understand how painful it is, every memory is a happy / sad one..
We don’t really even know what caused it, that’s the thing that’s so hard to handle and now this lockdown, dramademic going on and on every ad break on the telly the doom and gloom is broadcast, even on the few channels i do watch.. The youngest is now 8 and was 6, when he passed and now another 3 weeks of lockdown. What a life we living right now. We was due to go eurodisney for the easter weekend as well, a treat from granny for xmas.
Truth is if it’s your time it’s your time, we don’t control It. Time is so precious and we can never get it back.. Like now for what.. To not over run the nhs, so lifes gotta be put on hold… They ain’t fooling me or my kids… Is More to it I think, than they letting on.. Has this ever happened before.. The panic.. I’d trade with my son without a thought, if i had the chance, but that’s not how life works. Normally you get i’ll or it was an accident etc not your here in the afternoon and by dinner time you gone. so crazy