Chin up buddy (it helps with the breathing lol) all humour aside stay strong, you have a gift of being able to give other advice and make them feel at ease, read your post as if it was someonelse that wrote it and take that advice that comes into your head. I’m sure it would include keeping yourself upbeet where possible, as a Forum we have great caring cumunity and the Off Topic section is here for a reason. No one should feel alone or feel there is nowhere to turn, you and everyone has many ears to listen and offer support and guidance should it be needed, we are all here to help and hope you perk up soon. It’s easier to get through things when we are perky.
A safe virtual hug is yours for the taking.