Wayne, no need to apologise at all.
We are not androids, we are human. Skin, flesh, and bone with thoughts and feelings, each with individiual issues to cope with.
Life is not easy, things change over time and we shouldn’t underestimate how things impact us in many ways.
Physical and mental strength can deteriorate, and confidence can hit the floor for sure.
I’ve no personal experience of your issues, but can very much empathise with you, as in a very different way i’m also experiencing both physical and mental changes, its alien and its hard to accept.
Over the years of dealing with health troubles in my wife from the age of 19, and over recent years accepting problems developing in myself, i’ve become very adept at building the “i’m alright” wall around myself, even managing to fool myself many times over.
This week there was a harsh realisation that i’m not alright and the GP has taken me out of work for a while as a result.
Things change, its hard, I totally understand you may be struggling with that Wayne. I send you good wishes and genuinely hope you can find a bit of peace with your circumstances.
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